How do you say goodbye to your baby who you love dearly? There are so many things that you want to say, and not enough time or words to say. I wanted so much to touch his little head and try and remember how his beautiful hair feels and how soft his skin is. I wanted so much to just run away with him and to make everything ok. As a mother you just want to hold your baby and make everything ok, and it is heart breaking when you can't make the pain stop or to help in any way I just wanted him to know that he was loved, more then anything. To watch your baby die is the worst thing a mother can suffer, I wouldn't wish it upon the devil himself. It was the most heart wrenching, heart breaking thing I have ever done. How do you say goodbye?? I can't answer this questions, 4 weeks on, I wish I had said things, I wish I had done somethings. I don't regret all that I did and did get to say, but when you face this kind of trauma your brain seems to shut down, and you don't think completely rational, so there is things I would have liked to have told him. I guess I told him the most important thing I told him that I loved him.On the 15th the grandmothers got to have a hold of Harrison, and to say goodbye.
Oh Mel - this is so sad to read. What a truly lucky boy to have had you as a Mum. Beautiful photos and heart wrenching at the same time.
ReplyDeleteMel, your story is heart-breaking, I cannot offer any words of wisdom that will ease your pain or say anything that will help your situation. I would just like you to know that I am thinking of you and your family and that dear, dear little boy that got to have a cuddle with his mum, he got to feel your love and hear your voice.
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