Friday, October 29, 2010
People move on, but I can't
I layed awake half the night last night, you are constantly on my mind. I started to think I was doing ok, but it is back to being hard. After the debriefing I felt like Harrison didn't have much of a chance to live. It is so hard as my friends have gotten on with there lives and i am stuck and I don't feel like I can get on with my life. I am not ready to move on. My life has changed now and there is a part of my heart that is gone forever and is replaced with sadness. Christmas coming up bothers me as I won't have my baby boy there with us. I still have to face getting Christmas laybys off with toys for him in it. I miss you today Harrison, like every other day, today is just filled with sadness. I love you, I am sending you a kiss and a hug with lots of love from me.