How do I go on.....

You can shed tears that he is gone, or you can smile because he has lived.You can close your eyes and pray that he'll come back, or you can open your eyes and see all he's left. Your heart can be empty because you can't see him, or you can be full of the love you shared.You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday, or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday. You can remember him only that he is gone, or you can cherish his memory and let it live on. You can cry and close your mind, be empty and turn your back or you can do what he would want; smile and open your eyes, love and go on.
David Hawkins British Poet.

I like this poem, but I am not that strong yet to do these things. All I feel is the pain and the sorrow, and the hollowness of my heart. I do love though, I love my 3 gorgeous boys, and my 4th beautiful baby, who will always be remembered as baby Harrison. You are my angel now. Though I wish I had you here with me.

I miss you dearly baby boy. Mummy loves you. Your big brothers send you hugs and kisses.