Monday, November 8, 2010

What do you say.....

Yesterday we met with a neighbour down the road who we don't really know. She asked us how many children do we have. I stood there not knowing what to say, Rodney was with me and he said we have 3 boys. I was sad at this, what do you say. I am in no state to explain to complete strangers what happened, but then I felt bad that we didn't acknowledge Harrison. I wanted to scream out I have 4 children. Then this person came over and saw that Cody our 2 year old had 2 little coupe cars. I couldn't explain that I got another one of a friend who was getting rid of them, ultimately for Harrison so Cody and Harrison wouldn't fight over them. It just made me sad. Once again every where you turn there are thoughts of him, and reminders of what we don't have. It breaks my heart that he isn't here. I miss you Harrison, mummy loves you.


  1. I have a friend who lost a child and she says she has three here on earth and one with the angels.....

  2. I have lost 2 siblings. My brother a 6 month stillbirth and my 19yr old baby sister. I can feel a little of what you may be going through each and every day and my heart is full of sadness for you and your family. I dont know you but I just want to wrap my arms around you and give you a never ending silent hug. xx Harrison looks like a gorgeous little man! I have 2 children and an infant of my own. I had complications through out the last ones pregnancy and I was exhausted and shattered dealing with it. He is doing very well now. I can not imagine how this last 7 weeks and the pregnancy have been for you....I wish you and your family all the best as you try to move forward with life after such a loss and be assured harrison is in gods memory.

  3. I know what you mean as I lost a child he was only 5 when he left to be with the angels in 1998 and still to this day it is one question I still struggle with especially if they are strangers that ask.. I don't want to leave him out but I don't want to go on the explanation trail either so I answer acording to my mood... Hang in there and take it day by day was the best advice I was given and I still do to this day..